It's always around this time of year where I get depressed.. Seasonal depression isn't very fun. My complaint of the day today is: I'm doing absolutely nothing.
I'm not trying out for track this year. I was going to do swimming or diving, but I didn't. All because my stupid shoulder injury that put me in a sling for 3 months. I'm so paranoid that I'm going to hurt it again, and lately it's been throbbing with pain. I can hardly wear my backpack on it anymore because it's just killing me.
I had my heart set on making track this year (I didn't make it last year.. even though my times were better then one of the girls that made it.. don't get me started on that though..). But then, of course, my shoulder went out. It's so weak I know I wouldn't be able to go to conditioning even though my doctor cleared me. I know my limits, and usually I push myself over them, but I'm unable to even make a fist with my left arm.
The downfall of my "non-surgical treatment": NO MUSCLE REGAIN IN SHOULDER.
I think it's going to be messed up for my whole life. I'm so upset about it. I know I get injured a lot, but this injury has definitly caused the most pain.. Thanks Josh for messing up my shoulder, I love you too.. cousin. :(
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